Posted in life, Poems

racing thoughts

all these sleepless nights

are catching up to me

meanwhile

you walk away

scout free?

how is it

that you

moved on so fast –

you took any

chance

you got

to race off

with a piece

of my heart.

my hopes and dreams

were all crushed

by you

-XOXO chana

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Posted in Poems

end.

with every 

passing day 

i lose a piece of myself 

surrounded

by chaos 

and destruction 

the weary path 

i walk 

is leading me astray 

i’m left

drowning in my thoughts 

hoping it all 

e n d s

-XOXO chana

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Posted in life

my anxiety tells

over the years I have come to realize I tend to do certain things when I am feeling anxious. noticing these tells have helped me to understand my anxiety.

Below are some of my tells that I am anxious:

  • peeling the skin around my fingers
  • biting or licking my lips
  • talking quietly
  • skipping meals
  • uncontrollably nervous

what are some of your anxiety tells ? or how can you tell that you’re stressed out?

-XOXO chana

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Posted in Poems

¿ f o r e v e r ?

you were once

my everything

my light on a gloomy day

i remember

our late night chats

about our future

we talked about ‘ f o r e v e r ‘

everything is

sinking in now

the person I once

wanted to come home to

is now a

distant memory

of the past

-XOXO chana

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Posted in Poems

would you ?

if I needed your loving

would you comfort me ?

if I needed you

would you drop everything and rescue me ?

if I had disappeared

would you miss me ?

if I was stuck in jail

would you bail me out ?

if I were breathing my last breath

in my final moments

would you rush to pay me a visit ?

if I were gone

would you visit my grave?

-XOXO chana

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Posted in Poems

breaking barriers

i tore down my wall

wore my heart

on my sleeve

only for you

to come around and

shatter my heart

into a million pieces

i’m left trying to

piece my heart back together

but how do you mend a shattered heart ?

maybe the only remedy

is your love

-XOXO chana

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Posted in Poems

remedy to a broken heart ?

your the reason

for my tears

the cause of

this shattered heart

they say time heals

but with time

nothing has changed

my mind still wanders back to you

and all that we had

wondering when it will all stop

seeing your face in every crowd

hearing your voice in every dream

somehow

you have become

a blessing turned curse

maybe the only way

to forget you is

to finally end it all

-XOXO chana

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Posted in Poems

story of us

i try

my best to

forget the story of us

but somehow

you have a hold on me

here I am thinking of you

when all I want is

to forget you

-XOXO chana

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Posted in Poems

other girl

my mind takes me back to when we first met

the days we would talk for hours on end

me sneaking out to see you

the days you held me close

now you call me names and think I’m crazy

you tell me that you had another girl

your the reason for my tears

maybe this isn’t meant to be

maybe I don’t compare to this other girl

maybe just maybe I’m not good enough

-XOXO chana

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Posted in Anxiety

what not to say to someone with anxiety

Having been diagnosed with anxiety for a couple years now, i’ve come to realize that many individuals seem to brush off anxiety. Many individuals have said certain words to me that I have taken to heart and caused me to cut them out of my life. Cutting out people who don’t seem to understand the underlying processes of anxiety has been for the best. So with that, I encourage to y’all to consider whether or not certain individuals are meant to have a place in your life. Below are some things that I think shouldn’t be said to anyone with anxiety or even any mental illness.

  1. Its all in your head
  2. Get over it
  3. Calm down
  4. Others are suffering from something much worse than what you are going through
  5. You need to learn to push through
  6. Your overthinking it
  7. Theres nothing to worry about
  8. I don’t see why you are anxious
  9. Maybe you should stop thinking about it
  10. Stop stressing

For those of you who have ever said any of theses things to someone with anxiety, I encourage you to reconsider whaat you have said. These words that seem like nothing to you, acutally worsens the state that someone with anxiety is going through. Think before you speak.

-XOXO chana

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