all these sleepless nights
are catching up to me
meanwhile
you walk away
scout free?
how is it
that you
moved on so fast –
you took any
chance
you got
to race off
with a piece
of my heart.
my hopes and dreams
were all crushed
by you
-XOXO chana
with every
passing day
i lose a piece of myself
surrounded
by chaos
and destruction
the weary path
i walk
is leading me astray
i’m left
drowning in my thoughts
hoping it all
e n d s
-XOXO chana
over the years I have come to realize I tend to do certain things when I am feeling anxious. noticing these tells have helped me to understand my anxiety.
Below are some of my tells that I am anxious:
what are some of your anxiety tells ? or how can you tell that you’re stressed out?
-XOXO chana
you were once
my everything
my light on a gloomy day
i remember
our late night chats
about our future
we talked about ‘ f o r e v e r ‘
everything is
sinking in now
the person I once
wanted to come home to
is now a
distant memory
of the past
-XOXO chana
if I needed your loving
would you comfort me ?
if I needed you
would you drop everything and rescue me ?
if I had disappeared
would you miss me ?
if I was stuck in jail
would you bail me out ?
if I were breathing my last breath
in my final moments
would you rush to pay me a visit ?
if I were gone
would you visit my grave?
-XOXO chana
i tore down my wall
wore my heart
on my sleeve
only for you
to come around and
shatter my heart
into a million pieces
i’m left trying to
piece my heart back together
but how do you mend a shattered heart ?
maybe the only remedy
is your love
-XOXO chana
your the reason
for my tears
the cause of
this shattered heart
they say time heals
but with time
nothing has changed
my mind still wanders back to you
and all that we had
wondering when it will all stop
seeing your face in every crowd
hearing your voice in every dream
somehow
you have become
a blessing turned curse
maybe the only way
to forget you is
to finally end it all
-XOXO chana
i try
my best to
forget the story of us
but somehow
you have a hold on me
here I am thinking of you
when all I want is
to forget you
-XOXO chana
my mind takes me back to when we first met
the days we would talk for hours on end
me sneaking out to see you
the days you held me close
now you call me names and think I’m crazy
you tell me that you had another girl
your the reason for my tears
maybe this isn’t meant to be
maybe I don’t compare to this other girl
maybe just maybe I’m not good enough
-XOXO chana
Having been diagnosed with anxiety for a couple years now, i’ve come to realize that many individuals seem to brush off anxiety. Many individuals have said certain words to me that I have taken to heart and caused me to cut them out of my life. Cutting out people who don’t seem to understand the underlying processes of anxiety has been for the best. So with that, I encourage to y’all to consider whether or not certain individuals are meant to have a place in your life. Below are some things that I think shouldn’t be said to anyone with anxiety or even any mental illness.
For those of you who have ever said any of theses things to someone with anxiety, I encourage you to reconsider whaat you have said. These words that seem like nothing to you, acutally worsens the state that someone with anxiety is going through. Think before you speak.
-XOXO chana
