Posted in Dear Diary, life

dear diary pt.3

Dear Diary,

Lately I feel like my life has been flipped upside down. Everything has been going wrong. I’ve been feeling more anxious and slightly depressed. My bestfriend stopped talking to me and I don’t know what I did wrong. She slowly faded out of my life and is now avoiding me. It feels as if no one stays present in my life – they leave as soon as they get a chance. Maybe my anxiety becomes annoying. Maybe im overthinking it. Maybe its all my fault. Maybe she wasn’t meant to be in my life. Maybe I fucked up. Maybe I pushed her away. Don’t get me wrong – I wish her all the best in her future endeavours but I cant help but wonder what went wrong. Will I ever hear back from her?

-XOXO chana

Posted in Poems

senses

you say

nothings wrong

but i can sense

a shift

in energy

between my bones

-XOXO chana

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boi

i am done suffering alone

you’ve had

plenty of time

to make up

your stupid mind

yet

each night your probably with your bois

laughing

at the hurt

you caused

-XOXO chana

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strangers

i’ve become

a stranger

to my own body

i dont recognize

my self

no more

gone are the traces

of my old self

-XOXO chana

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loose connections

a loose connection

these past few months

i’ve been feeling lost

wandering these lonely streets

yet – I cant seem to

get you out

of my head

how can you sleep at night

knowing you’ve been

acting like a fool


I seem to

i miss your sister

more these days

i keep reminiscing to

those phone calls

with her in the background


N, i need you more than ever right now

tell me why your brother has been acting like this

tell me how hes been

tell me if he comes home intoxicated

-XOXO chana

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Posted in Poems

the key

6 months 

since I called it quits 

but I still find you on my mind 

every second of every day 

why? 

your love was

the key to mending my broken soul 

without you 

i feel lost 

i’m walking

down a dark road 

in the desert 

slowly dying 

starving —

craving

your attention 

but all I hear 

is radio silence 

-XOXO chana

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