like clockwork
you disappear a month at a time
just when I need you most
treating me like I’m delusional
scheming with my family and friends
treating me like I’m just some random girl
putting me through several panic attacks
here I am
living everyday on the verge of a breakdown
-XOXO chana
here I am
thinking of you
and all that we had
yet no one seems to believe it
i’m stuck replaying memories of you
in the black hole that is is my mind
i close my eyes and all I see is you
-XOXO chana
-xoxo chana
they say its all in her head
though her mind is
the deep blue sea
with waves crashing
against the shore
repeatedly
theres no escaping
this madness
-xoxo chana
hello friends welcome back! Today’s Christmas Tag post was totally inspired by the Southern Lights Altantic Lights Blog; Go ahead and check out her awesome blog 🙂
-xoxo chana
-xoxo chana
why do i blog?
This is one post that I will definitely come back too in the future; especially when I lose motivation or have writer’s block 🙂
-XOXO chana
its been one of those days
all thats on my mind is – you
i’m sitting here in despair
questioning
why you were taken away
wondering
if it will ever get easier
as the tears stream down my face
i’m left living through the memory of you
-XOXO chana
-XOXO chana
This post is dedicated to my parents – my king and queen.
Recently, in June of 2017, I graduated from high school. This could not be possible without the love and support of my family. Especially my parents. These two individuals are what motivate and inspire me to work hard.
My father is the most hardworking person I know. Born and raised in Sri Lanka, my father decided to flee Sri Lanka in his mid 20’s. At that time, Sri Lanka was in the middle of the civil war. He fell in love and wanted a better life for his future family. In order to achieve this, he left his home, family, and friends to come to Canada. Once he arrived, he worked his butt off to be able to sponsor his girlfriend (my mom). Soon, he did so and brought over not my mom but also my uncle and a few family friends. After my mother came to Canada. They got married. At this time my father was working multiple
part time jobs to support his wife. Eventually, they had children which brought my siblings and I into this world. Even to this day, my father works endlessly to support us – his family. He works multiple jobs just to keep his family happy.
Now my mother. She is one the most nurturing people I know. My mom made the decision to become a house wife and take care of her family. This idea stemmed from the fact that her mother was always working. My mom wanted to be there for her children in ways that her mother couldn’t be there for her. She did everything she could for us. From waking us up in the morning, bringing us tea in bed, picking us up from school, cooking meals and spending time with us.
One thing I am certain about is that I would not be the person I am today without my parents. They would sacrifice everything and anything for me. Every day I am grateful that God has given me my parents. Individuals who love and support me and all my crazy decisions. Though I am not going to be a doctor in the future, I hope I make you proud.
-XOXO chana
