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so you want to start a bullet journal

Here are a few things that I think you should know before you start bullet journaling

  • You don’t need expensive supplies
    • I started off by buying supplies from my local dollarstore and supermarket
    • Stay tuned for a blog post all about my favourite bullet journal supplies
  • You don’t need to stick to the orginal bullet journaling method
    • Put your own spin on it
    • I don’t include the index pages in my bullet journal
  • You don’t have to spend a lot of time drawing creative spreads
    • Do what you feel is best
  • The simpler the spread the easier in my opinion
  • Pick up supplies to help you liven up your spreads
    • Stickers, colourful pens, washitape, pictures, highligthers

So what are you waiting for ? Grab a notebook and start your bullet journal journey 🙂

-XOXO chana

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august plan with me

hello loves, im back again with another post – all things bullet journal related.

I usually find my self sticking to simple and easy spreads. but this month I wanted to try something new and incorporate a theme to my spreads. I decided on friends 🙂

august seperator

I included a doodle of the door and picture frame found in Monica and Rachels apartment as well as my take on the central perk logo.

months at a glance
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I created these spreads a while back but did not touch them in the month of august. for next month I will probably stick just doing simpler spreads 🙂

have you ever thought about starting a bullet journal?

-XOXO chana

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My Birthday Fundraiser

Hello everyone, I just wanted to hop on here and say that for the month of june i am going to try and write a blog post everyday or at least 5 times a week. I am hoping to raise money for 2 organizations for my birthday. I want to raise money for 2 interrelated causes – mental illness and for those affected by the civil war in Sri Lanka (orphans).

The first one being for Mental illness- as you all know mental illness is one of the leading causes of illness in Canada but due the stigma around it many individuals do not seek help. I want to raise money and give it to Shoniker Clinic. In addition, within the Tamil community Mental Illness is seen as taboo and is barely spoken about. Family’s are afraid speaking up will ruin their reputation and how others will perceive them. Tamils hold reputation on a gold platter when in reality, not acknowledging mental illness as a illness affects not only the individual but also the family. How many more lives do we have to lose in the Tamil community before Tamils stand together and fight against the stigma? In 2019 alone, we lost 3 lives that I know of. This could have been prevented if we openly spoke about mental illness within the Tamil community. So let’s stand together and speak about mental illness. Those with mental illness are not defined by their diagnosis. We see things from a new POV – we are NOT crazy, defensive, sensitive, lazy, drama queens, annoying, violent. Mental illness manifest in different ways – you can be super productive or you can face chronic fatigue.

The second cause I want to donate to is to feed orphans due to Mullivaikal in SL on my birthday and to buy orphans materials (pencils, pens etc) and feed them. If you know any well known charitable organizations in Sri Lanka please let me know.

Thank you. To e-transfer or PayPal me send me a message. Anything helps, even if it’s just 1 dollar.

Thank you in advance

Donate Here

-XOXO chana

P.S I have already reached my initial goal but will still be raising money. So if you can donate! If you dont have the means to donate please share on your social media.

What are some organizations you think I should donate to – they must be reputable. ?

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the expense of protection

They tell me they lied for me 

To protect me – 

But at what expense was it at ?

2 years of nothing but lies 

2 years of waiting on him

2 years of crying my self to sleep

2 years of being treated like I’m crazy 

2 years of scheming

2 years of depression

2 years of suicidal thoughts – 

The only things keeping me from ending my life 

Was my girls specifically M,A,S,T, 

They were the ones by my side at my lowest 

They were the ones that motivated me to get better 

They were the ones who validated my feelings 

They were the ones who were there for me 

at my lowest and darkest nights

They were the ones I spilled my heart out to 

Because I couldn’t trust my family

So this ones for them. 

Thank you for sticking by my side.

Thank you for being there 

Thank you for making me realize my self worth 

Thank you for giving me the love I needed to heal 

Thank you for providing me words of affirmation

I love you guys to infinitely and beyond 

-XOXO chana

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Awesome Blogger Award

So, I got nominated for an award – the last time I did one of these was in probably a few years ago. I would like to thank Jirah Merizz for nominating me :). I’m so happy you have been enjoying my blog. Be sure to check her out!


Rules

  1. Thank the person who nominated you.
  2. Answer the questions you were asked.
  3. Nominate at least five bloggers and inform them of their nomination.
  4. Give them ten questions to answer.

Questions:

  1. If there’s no quarantine, what are you doing right now? I would probably still be at home with a nice cup of tea and a book or watching netflix.

2. What are some of your favourite Netflix series? This list could go on and on – but a few are Grey’s Anatomy, Burden of Truth, Brooklyn Nine Nine, Gilmore Girls, One Day at a Time, Lucifer, The Flash and The Ranch.

3. How long have you been blogging already? I have been blogging since early 2017 – so 3 years 🙂

4. What are some of your favourite posts that you’ve written?

5. What inspires you to blog? My late cousin, Waldo, and the hopes of fighting the stigma against mental illness.

6. Would you still write if WordPress never existed? Yes, I would but it would probably be for myself. Before I started my blog, I wrote in my bullet journal.

7. Describe one goal you’d like to achieve before the year ends? I want to increase my GPA in university. My grades have suffered this past year due to my anxiety but I am determined to work hard to see the improvement!

8. Would you rather have a cat or a dog? Can’t decide between the two – I actually want both.

9. What is your favourite book? The Fault in Our Stars by John Green

10. If you had to change your name, what would it be? To be honest, I never thought about changing my name. So I don’t know.

I nominate:

Please check out the blogs I’ve listed – these are the ones I’ve been enjoying as of late. Dear nominees, it’s up to you if you’d like to participate in this award.

My Questions for you:

  • What is your favourite pastime?
  • What made you want to start writing on WordPress?
  • What are some of your favourites this month (product, technology, book, music etc)
  • If you could go back 10 years what would you tell your past self?
  • How are you feeling during these trying times with COVID-19?
  • Who is one person you look up to in your life?
  • Are you a coffee or tea drinker?
  • What do you see your self doing in the next 10 years – career wise and personally?
  • What is your favourite animal?
  • How do you deal with challenges or stress in your life?

I look forward to seeing your responses 🙂

-XOXO chana

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loose connections

a loose connection

these past few months

i’ve been feeling lost

wandering these lonely streets

yet – I cant seem to

get you out

of my head

how can you sleep at night

knowing you’ve been

acting like a fool


I seem to

i miss your sister

more these days

i keep reminiscing to

those phone calls

with her in the background


N, i need you more than ever right now

tell me why your brother has been acting like this

tell me how hes been

tell me if he comes home intoxicated

-XOXO chana

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dear diary pt.2

Lately everything’s been going to shit. My relationships with my friends. My skin. My grades. My mental health just everything. Nothing seems to help me get through and mend this rough patch. Maybe that’s just how life will be without you. 

Yes I know. I shouldn’t be thinking about you. I shouldn’t be dwelling on all that we had. But that’s me I over analyze, over think and feel too much. You were once my source of happiness. My everything and now you are the cause of my pain and depression.

I never thought that I would experience pain as bad as when Waldo passed. But for some reason, the pain you caused is worse. 

They say love makes you blind. But for me you made me see reality clearer. You helped me – you healed my broken soul. You were the one thing I didn’t know I needed in my life. Once you entered everything changed. I was happier. I became more comfortable with who I was. I was the best version of my self. 

But without you now, it hurts so fucking much. I’m not me. I’m like a lost dog, wandering aimlessly trying to find my best friend. 

-XOXO chana

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how to keep busy when things don’t seem to be going right

We’ve all been through a time when nothing seems to be going your way. All you want to do is just stay in bed, sleep and binge watch Netflix! Although these things may help you – there are definitely other alternatives to ease your mind and soul! Here are a couple things I like to do when nothing seems to workout:

read

there’s nothing like a good book when your are in a slump and feeling down. a perfect way for you to escape your world for a little while

create art

create something! whether it be a painting, sketch, poem, video or even just simply writing down your thoughts

self care

the perfect remedy to the blues is to take care of yourself and body. go take a bath. put on a face mask and paint your nails!

what are somethings you like to do to not only keep busy but ease your soul ?

– XOXO chana

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the aftermath of my diagnosis

3 years – since being diagnosed with generalized anxiety disorder. And it has been a roller coaster of emotions.

I remember my parents telling me to hide it from my friends. They had my best interest in mind – as they didnt want to me be treated differently. But I did it anyway.

May 2nd – the day I told my friends, who I thought would be by my side for the rest of my life. Yet even 6 months later with the death of my cousin- they did not say 1 word of comfort to me.

Who would have known that down the road, I would lose friends for having generalized anxiety disorder. With this diagnosis came, me realizing my true friends.

So I guess, this is me, saying thank you to those who have stuck by my side in times of hardship.

-XOXO chana

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