rest in peace to what we had 2 years strong but in the end you betrayed the tiny thread of trust --- you broke me now, I keep digging up the grave of our love to reminice all that we once had -XOXO chana
Anxiety
to the only guy I’ve ever loved,
Maybe just maybe I fell for you too hard too fast. Every waking moment is spent thinking of you and wondering how you are doing. Yet lately it seems like it’s not being reciprocated. You were the first guy I ever properly spoke to - openly. I told you about my fears, my dreams and…
the chronicles of chana – pt.1 : prologue
The Baleswarans. Close knit. Loving. Loyal. Privileged. Damaged. Minorities. Trustworthy. Selfless. We live in in Toronto - more specifically Scarborough. Chana was an ordinary girl. Loving family of 4 beautiful souls who she could depend on. Friends that she believed in. Living with flaws she had learned to love over time. Just a city girl…
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An Anthropological Take on My Diagnosis
Hey there ! I hope you guys are staying safe during these trying times. I'm back with a new post ! This was a paper I wrote for one of my anthropology courses at UofT – Medical Anthropology: Illness and Healing in Cultural Perspective. This paper looks at my medical diagnosis of generalized anxiety disorder…
he said she said
they tell her to move on they say he’s a cheater but they don't know him like she does ___________________________ She misses those stolen glances his eyes his smile his hugs those study dates ___________________________ he once used to call her with endearing terms now he calls her crazy mental psycho delusional -XOXO chana
Canadian Youth and Anxiety
Mental Illness is one of the leading causes of illness worldwide. Yet many fail to access these resources due to both systemic and personal reasons. It also does not help that individuals continually have to face stigma and discrimination. This was a paper I wrote for one of my health studies courses at UofT -…
apologies
when I was losing my mind going stir crazy stuck in the house you told me you would be there for me if I needed anything you would help yet 6 months down the line history was repeating its self and you, stood there and lied to my face told me you didn’t know who…
you said
you said you would be there for me you said you wouldnt hurt me you said you would protect me at all costs you said that you would be consistent you said that you were in it for the long haul yet ---- you aren't here right when I need you most ____________________________ was I…
eelam
the history of my people runs in my veins the stories of inhumane acts run like a film roll in my head the legacy of my family & tamils keeps me going everything I do is to honour my blood the history of tamils sometimes keeps me up at night 2009 , haunts me my…
darkest days
even on my darkest I still speak about you with endearing terms and spill my heart out to anyone willing to listen they say - If he were the one he would have ; stayed been present consisten they call you: a wastebucket a fuc boi toxic an ass a cheat - but I know…